Friday, November 21, 2008

Leading the BLIND

I have a weird feeling right now.  The best analogy that I can come up with is that of a woman who knows she will deliver her baby on a certain day due to a scheduled C-section.  However, I think that both of us, Chris and I, are feeling the same thing right now.  We are anxious.  We have lots of energy.  We have no words.  We are excited.  We are scared.  We are thinking about our son.  We are thinking about our court date on Tuesday.  We are praying that it will be successful.  As his parents, we feel helpless.  Everything is out of our hands.  We try to keep ourselves busy.  We wish time away.  We are preparing to take a trip of our lifetime.  We are trying to learn about Ethiopia.  We are trying to learn about being parents.  We are nervous. We want our son to know he has been loved from the time that he was born.  We want his transition to be easy.  We know that we are a family that will encounter issues.  We want to have answers for our son.  We want people to know that we would not trade this journey for anything.  We miss our son.  We wish we could hold him.  We wish that he could hear us tell him we love him.  When we are missing him, we go to his room.  We go through his things.  We read his books.  We look at his clothes.  We talk about what we will take to Ethiopia.  We are excited.  We are anxious.  We are waiting...waiting patiently to hear if he is legally our son.  We are praying.  Praying hard.


9 comments:

gina said...

My prayers are with you! Keep the faith. Good luck and best of all CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I am Ashley Bigelow's aunt.Can't wait to see pictures of your family.

Jess said...

What an amazing journey you both are on and one that will lead to an amazing blessing! Of course you are filled with so many emotions! Turn to God for He is your strength and the calm that you seek :) Love you tons!!!

Wendi and Mark said...

You have been in our thoughts so much as Tuesday approaches. We're looking forward to seeing you tonight and hopefully helping the time pass by more quickly for you. I am especially appreciative of you sharing your thought and emotions so plainly ... thank you for letting us all journey with you. Those of us who are a few steps behind you, well, it means a lot to be present with you during this time.

See you soon. Wendi (and Mark, too!)

Jen said...

We are praying with you.

Natalie said...

We are praying with you too!

Angela said...

I think you two are so amazing! God has blessed you and will continue to do so because of your faith in Him. Love you!

Janet Whipple said...

Sarah, We are soooooo hoping things go well on Tuesday!! Hang in there! It was great meeting you guys and we look forward to seeing you again sometime!

Emily said...

Chris and Sarah,
It was so wonderful to meet you guys! We are praying for a successful court date on Tuesday! Hang in there!

Emily Jarvis
www.emilyadoptionjourney.blogspot.com

jenn said...

what an incredible journey you have been on and continue to walk, and soon your son will join you! we are all so excited and can only imagine the many emotions you are experiencing. we hold you in your prayers and our hearts and know that God is with you every step of the way!!! awesome!!! love ya...m.e.